Wonder how tomorrow's subbing extravaganza will go. Last Friday sucked, as in I wanted to turn in my teacher certificate then and there. I can be such a bitchy, mean person: I'm not sure why I can't channel that in the classroom when it might do some good.

As another fledgling teacher and I were saying, we didn't want to buy into the "Don't smile til Christmas" rule. I'm a humanist. I want to believe the best of kids. Also, I lack what I believe one theorist called "withitness," or knowing what's going on in the room at all times. For instance, I learned that one of my idiots was playing some sort of video game in the back of the room and I didn't realize. Because I am fucking stupid.

Also, I'd rather not hate my students but sometimes I kind of do, or small groups of them, anyway.

Time for some chocolate with a Xanax chaser, I suppose.